trying to figure out this life :: [29 May 2004|05:16pm] [ mood | careless ] [ music | the game of love -- santana ] today .. hmm ? today is just one of those absolutely nothing to do days. i woke up and did nothing for a while and then i had to help around the house .. i helped my mom with lunch which was really really good lol and now im waiting for my mom to finish cleaning up the kitchen so that she can give me a ride to my friends house. other than that nothing else. i dont get it .. everyone is out ! lol but like i dont kno im not really in like a going out mood like i just wana chill around the house im not like wanting to do anything i have too much on mind and like idk also im broke and going out means spending money and right now i have none. i wanted to go to the beach but first of all the weather isnt even that hot so im sure that it has to be a lot cooler down there + it has to be packed and the traffic must be never ending do whateverr . lol i dont mind chillen in good ol` ep for the weekend after all that is all i do . lol soo nothing else for now . byee xOo - this lil` foOlish girl <3 Make Yourself Sick

what is there to do ? [28 May 2004|11:06pm] [ mood | idk -- shitty mood ?? ] [ music | silence of my attic -- hahaa ] wow life is definetly a fcuking drag mann ! i am soo sick of like everything and everyone around me. i just dont know what the hell to do anymore and idk it just sucks cus if i think about it life isn't that bad idk i just guess that it isn't the way that i want it to be so mab thats why i think that it sucks. but anywayss .. well its mDw and everyone thinks that its great .. yeahh i guess if i had somewhere to go! but for now im stuck in this pathetic house. g r e a t ! soO what i do today ? i woke up earlier than i wanted to but my mom was talking on the phone and she was really loud so i woke up .. i was a lil pissed about that but whatever .. so i ate and cleaned my room a lil and then i went in the shower and got ready -- blah blah blah -- and then i went out with my mom and my sister to get some kitchen appliance [ ha thats a funny word lol ] it was really really boring .. me i sat outside in the car the whole time reading a magazine and listening to music and it was pissing me off cus there was like no good music playing on the radio!! ugh and then i got even more pissed cus like a few nights ago i burned this CD with like songs that i like at the moment and my dumbass left it at school hah! thats how smart i am [ just gotta love mee ! ]and then after we went to BK what funn ! lol ehh i guess that it was better than staying home. and tonite absolutely nothing .. bored sitting here but idk i kinda like dont mind. soO .. ? oO yeahh ! i deleted ALL of my old entries for this thing iDk they were kinda gay so i decided to just delete them lol. and i wana re-do it but i dont know how to do that so im gonna have to wait so that i can ask jackie to do it again for me lol. i just hope that i get better at thie entry writting thing cus my old ones were just "gayness to tha fullest " lol. but yeahh .. that was my day for today. oO and about this *guy* idk what im gonna do! i think about him ALL the time but then i know that i also HAVE to forget about him -- ugh if only i got one just [ o n e ] chance -- haha that sounded really really mushy <-- gayyyy !! lol. but heyy thats how i feel. lol soO now im gonna go .. hmm ? what im i gonna do prolly watch tv or just go to sleep there is nothing better to do. xOo -- this lil` foOliSh girl <3 Make Yourself Sick

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